Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Finally I post

Although we had taken Jonas to Victoria several times before, it seems that this past weekend was his first 'real' time. All the other times were BW (before walking). Now it feels as if he has a new conciousness; he has the ability to really get around and check things out all on his own. BW he sat back for the ride abit more.



Jonas visited cousin Taagen this past weekend - Taagen is 11 months older than Jonas and is a total superstar talker. It was soooo cute to watch them interacting with each other. They (of course) played trucks, did art, danced to music and ate together. It was very special.



Two new advancements in Jonas's 14 months is that he can now use a spoon really well and he is really beginning to socialize with other tots. When once Jonas wouldn't really care or notice when other tots came up close and communicated or took his toy, he now appears to be trying to communicate and will get realllly angry if other child attempts to take away his toy. I really noticed it when Taagen was struggling to understand how to share his toys with Jonas - Jonas would cry out in anger if anything was taken away from him in mid play.



Another learning aspect for Jord and I is teaching Jonas not to throw....sometimes. Since the beginning we cheered on Jonas's throwing. Now we have realized that Jonas needs to learn when and where it is appropriate to throw something. At first I thought that maybe I would have to put an end to all throwing but I have since revised this idea and am now explaining to Jonas about throwing. It is my goal that he will soon understand what things are appropriate to throw, such as a ball and not his lunch. I hope that he soon understands that throwing sand and rocks around other people is also a big no no. So far he is listening to me and seems to understand.

ANyhow, I am out of time. Later aligator from the mumma-ship.

Monday, April 28, 2008

14 Months

It's probably been about two or thee weeks since Jonas and I spent the afternoon indoors. Seriously.
Today we went to parents and tots at the community center and spent the morning singing songs, playing in sand, sharing turns on the slide and sharing snacks. Jonas is so busy all morning that he usually falls asleep on the way home. He just plays so hard - and he has this thing with those little flinstone-like cars; he can sit right inside and scoot around - he LOoves those cars. I try and encourage him to check out other stuff but he always goes back to the cars.
This afternoon, after his 2 hour nap, Jonas didn't seem like his usual happy energetic self so I decided that we would chill out indoors for a change. We did some crayon drawings, washed the floors and some other random activities. It was actually a nice change.
Our house has gotten quite dirty and messy over these past few weeks. Most days we are outside getting the yard ready for summer. Our garden this year is the biggest yet - so far we have planted lettuce, kale, spinach, chard, cauliflower, bush beans, broccoli, pole beans, radishes, cucumbers, kiwi, peas. The strawberry patch, blueberry bushes and raspberry bushes are growing beautifully-I am hoping we have as many strawberries as we did last year! Also, I am hoping that we get some peaches - so far our beautiful peach tree hasn't produced anything - but this year there are just so many pink blossoms so I am hoping... We also have apple, pear and cherry trees to plant asap. So you can see we are crazy busy at the moment - not to mention the new native garden we have put together among other already established gardens that needed some work as well. There are just so many, too many projects that I want to complete in the next month, so we'll see.
Jonas, of course, spends his time with us in the garden and around the yard, forever exploring. I am completely lenient as far as his explorations into mud, puddles, weed piles, rock piles and soil piles. He gets very very dirty every single day and maybe thats why our house is so dirty with sawdust and random dirt and sticks all over, but really, I do love to see him having a great time exploring everything.
On a typical day Jonas will wake up at 7ish. He still sleeps between us in our bed and although he still nurses two or three times a night I seem to be quite well rested lately. I still have an occassional nap with Jonas at his nap time, but I have noticed my energy levels are quite high - I am able to get alot of stuff done in a day whereas 6 months ago I might have been exhausted!
Since Jonas gets alot of milk in the early morning, he is never very hungry until late morning. Jord and I have some coffee together and watch Jonas race around the house and entertain us. Neither of us can imagine anything better than being entertained in our own living room by our little guy first thing in the morning! Then we usually walk Jord over to work, say hello to the horses and chickens, maybe grab a few eggs, check out any trucks or excavators or dump trucks that may be nearby and then we head to one of the gardens to check out any new growth...And our day begins!
Other things that Jonas enjoys lately is rearranging all of our drawers, getting his own snacks out of his snack cuppboard, getting his own cups and bowls out of his utensil drawer, he likes to be with other kids, he loves grooving to music in his bedroom, he likes the library and the grocery stores, he absolutely lOVEs to visit his grandparents and Autie and cousins. He loves his animals. He loves MANY books now. His favourite foods seem to be beans, almond butter on wraps, sprouts and olives. But really, if he is hungry he eats everything on his plate including spicey dishes.
I must say that Jonas has a really great life; living close to family, living in nature and spending everyday exploring freely. We will be living in the city for about 3 years starting in Sept, actually we will be living right on campus in family housing at SFU. Its gonna be a great adventure for all three of us and although we won't be living in the beauty we live in now, the city will have so much to offer us and I plan on taking in as much as I can while I am there!

Tuesday, March 25, 2008

13 Months


Do all toddlers make up their own sound effects? Is it a boy thing only or what? Jonas is just so funny, for a few months now he will push his tractor walker around and make these grunt like growls. Now, with the Tonka truck he received from his Uncle, he makes more sound effects...the other day someone gave him these little cars and again he is pushing them around the house with such focus and of course making all these sound effects. I didn't teach him the sounds. And the only thing he really watches on TV are nature shows - you know the ones with the narrator...he loves those!

We spend alot of time outside in the garden or at the ocean. The other day Jonas went and 'helped' Grandpa J plant some trees; he also helped Grandpa J bring a big log to the mill on the excavator - helping with Jill's cabin! Jonas was not afraid in the least, in fact, he was totally excited!

Jonas still loves to have many books read to him and reread each day. We do word books and shape books and also longer story books which he can usually sit through. We try to get to the library every other week to pick out new books in the children's section. Everyone just loves to see his big smile and babble talk as he walks around the library. We still have our own favourite books and I am patting myself on the shoulder for buying so many kids books at garage sales before Jonas was born. We are slowly making our way through them and probably will be for years and years to come.

We've been cross country skiing together a few times this year - I pulled Jonas around on the sled whereas Jordan had him in the backpack. We are planning to do some snow camping in the next month or so.

Until Jonas started taking his first steps at 11.5 months, we had been easily successful with alot of diaper free days (cloth for outings and plastic at night). But then Jonas started getting really upset on his little potty so my reaction was to put it away and not let him get too worked up over it. After a month or so we bought a toilet insert and instead of saying 'potty' we said 'toilet'. It worked a few times and then, again, he straightened his legs and got mad. And then after rereading the diaper free book again (certain parts) I decided to take his little potty out of storage and just put it in the living room instead of the bathroom. I thought maybe the bathroom was upsetting him... So here we are now having him pee (sometimes) in the potty in the living room. He still gets mad at times and I have to distract him by reading to him. If he continues to get mad I guess I will have to stop again and try again later. It will be easier in the summer when he can be outside more and bottomless. Any suggestions?

I have slowed down abit with my Physiology and Anatomy course. Its a huge amount of information to take in and I have decided to take the course in the prescribed 10 month part time format. That's a little more do able. But at the same time I have moved ahead with working toward my Doula certification in order to build up on labour and postpartum experience before I go to UBC.

I don't know if any of you have read either of Ina May's books, Spiritual Midwifery or Guide to Childbirth, but after reading these books again, now that I have had the experience of childbirth, I can really understand the books and all they encompass. I had no idea before having Jonas, how truly awesome and liberating and empowering giving birth can be. Its amazing. Its been 13 months since I had Jonas and when I go through the whole labour in my minds eye, I am still able to see some things so clearly, but the most clear of all is my feelings of the whole event and just being so deep inside of myself and working with my body. And then all the laughter that erupted from me the moment that Jonas came out, that feeling is still so close and so clear. I think that all of this is coming up because of all the studying I am doing in prep for the Doula course coming up. At my birth I had 2 midwives and a student midwife. It was perfect in that I felt supported and well taken care of.

I think that I would definitely have a doula the next time I give birth, unless, of course, there is another student. The midwives main concern is the health of the baby and mother and then of course they are incredibly supportive and knowledgeable. Whereas the father is there to support the mother and to witness the birth of his child. When the midwives are busy with the clinical aspects of the labour, or the father is away on the phone, in the bathroom or eating or else in a position of fatigue or not knowing what to do while the mother is having a particularly hard contraction, the doula can support the father and or mother. She can share knowledge, help with massage or just anything that is needed for the mother or father in any aspect except clinical and decision making. She is the rock that is there to see the mother and father through to the birth and beyond. The doula will also write a birth story as well. I have all the notes that the midwives took during labour and delivery and I have my fragmented memory and Jordan's as well, but its just not the same as a full run down of events from clinical to emotional. And it is definitely an event that I would never want to forget!

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Birthday and Beach Pictures





Thursday, February 21, 2008

And Labour started exactly a year ago today....


It was a year ago today that I sat at my computer, blogging in the morning, when I became uncomfortable in my chair. I took a bath to ease the discomfort but by then I was having contractions that were already 3 minutes apart. I remember so well how giddy and excited I became when I was trying to decide if it was real contractions or not. I talked to my sister, my mom and my mom in law on the phone to figure out what to do next. I was just sooo excited! I had to take the ferry over to town, so I drove myself over and Janet met me. It was so very exciting....I remember writing the note for Jordan, who was at that moment wondering around the woodlot with his dad, doing some map work. Of course it was the one day I could not reach him by cell phone!

And I can't believe its almost been a whole year since Jonas became a physical part of our lives. I could not imagine my life without Jonas. He has added so much depth and joy to each and everyday. Not a moment of any part of any day is wasted. It is always full and busy; especially now that he is so mobile and interesting. I must admit he was cute in his first few months, but once he hit that 6 month age, he really became alot of fun! And now that he is a few hours short of being a year old he is non stop excitement.

I know that I haven't written about this yet, but he is now taking steps. He has been taking steps for about 2 weeks now, but its hard to say that he is WALKING because its only 4-9 steps at a time. So its been a very gradual process. I am not sure if these personality traits will stay with Jonas his entire life, but at this point I can say that he is very focused, methodical, strong and careful. He listens well. He sits and stacks his blocks and gets really focused in his play. He loves visiting family and loves playing with his cousins. He loves to watch Livia dance and he loves to dance while she dances. I loves to carefully examine Camerons bionicle toys. He loves going for walks with Dad in the big backpack. He still has all of his baths with mom or dad or mom and dad. He still sleeps between mom and dad all night. He goes to sleep each night quite easily. He still breastfeeds every three hours throughout the night and only 3 times during the day. He helps to put his toys away into their baskets and knows where certain things belong, like his brush and comb in front of his mirror in his bedroom. He has all of his naps on his futon on the floor of his bedroom where more often than not mom or dad will nap with him. He naps twice a day. Jonas enjoys trips to the library, grocery store and parents and tots which is our new outing each week.
His new love is also finger painting....



....and body painting.

Wednesday, January 23, 2008

My sweet little boy...


smoothie madness

forever getting into things, exploring

leaving a trail wherever her goes...

Daddy pulling Jonas along the x country trails at Mount Washington

Monday, January 21, 2008

Dad is now SAHD

(stay at home dad) For the next 6 weeks anyway. I have embarked onto a journey into the world of anatomy and physiology, a 6 credit course meant to be taken over 10 months, a course I hope to complete in 6 weeks. phew.

Isn't life already hectic you may wonder. Well, it is and that's why I haven't found any time to sit down, gather my thoughts and update this blog. Also I haven't been here because the Christmas season, our fave festivity, was jammed packed with family, baking, eating, friends and a whole whack of activities.
And because life has been just so busy this past while, whenever I do have a moment to myself, I try to run, hike, ski and most recently get to a Bikram Yoga class. Wow, when I went to my first class over the holidays I was so invigorated by working so hard I kind of got addicted. Too bad its all the way in Courtenay...
And OF course the main reason life is busy busy busy is because my little Jonas is becoming an intense little toddler.
Its as if over these past few weeks his personality has really began to shine through. He is such a fast crawler, he is sooo mobile! And strong. He pushes whatever furniture he can across the floor-his high chair, chairs, books, balls...anything he can budge into motion. He enjoys to play pass with the ball and he loves to play tag crawling style. I am not sure when he will actually walk because he is such a mobile crawler, but it could be anytime really.
A couple of weeks ago we all got the flu and Jonas got sick with strep throat again. The only time he has ever been sick was with strep throat in Sept; at which time, if I remember correctly, he began, while sick, to sooth himself with his thumb. Since then he has soothed himself back to sleep each night (usually) with his thumb. Until this second time he has had strep throat and all the sudden its as if he forgot his thumb and he hasn't used it since! Strange! Now he is back to nursing more frequently throughout the night.
He also seems to have formed abit of separation anxiety - when once we could leave him alone with one of the grandparents for a few hours, he has begun to get angry when we both leave. He is fine with either one of us alone, but lately when we have gone out together he has become quite upset with alot of tears. So, at the moment we keep him close and I go along with his frequent nursing throughout the night. Its just a phase I am sure. Jordan figures it is just something in his development at the moment - maybe getting ready to walk or maybe teething.
Jonas still loves to eat, but doesn't like the pureed food as much as before. He likes the real thing - so we give him lots of veggies, smoothies, crackers with almond butter, beans etc... Its funny that he won't really take pureed fruits/veggies anymore, but he can never get enough of the green smoothies I share with him...
Yesterday we took Jonas up to the mountains and skied around while pulling him around in a special sled. It was beautiful and I can't wait to go again. I can't wait to put him on some skis when he is abit bigger. haha.
And by the way - I have been keeping up with all you mom bloggers out there-good for you to keep the updates coming even though I am sure you have about as much free time as I do these days!!!
And Lisa, I am sooo excited for you!!!!!!

Thursday, December 6, 2007

Nap Time Drama, Night Time Trauma


Over the past several days, at nap time or bed time, when I nurse Jonas, he seems to get a huge burst of energy. Could it be changes in my milk? Hormones? Perhaps Jonas doesn't actually need the nap, just a cuddle, some milk and a few moments of quiet before heading back into world of learning and discovery. I am not sure. Maybe when he starts rubbing his eyes and getting cranky, all he needs is a little quiet time and not an actual sleep. Yet today when he did this, I waited abit longer until he really looked more tired and then I just lay next to him without offering to nurse and he just sucked his thumb and fell asleep. hmmmm.
Night time has gotten a little out of control over these past few days. When we all get into bed together, Jonas will seem tired, then nurse, then get a huge burst of energy - he starts smiling and crawling back and forth between Jordan and I. Usually, after Jonas falls asleep, its our special time to read or relax together in bed. We need to do something different, but I am not sure yet. Jonas has always been a very easy baby to put to sleep.
Last night got so ridiculous that I ended up putting him to bed on the futon next to the bed. He finally fell asleep, but since he was not right next to us, he began to wake up every three hours(I think).
I will have to be more aware of whats going on tonight - but these nights that I am monitoring the situation, I don't sleep as well. But maybe in the long run I will get more sleep if I figure it out now.
I am thinking about having Jonas spend his first night away from us soon. hmm. Its harder than I thought, I keep avoiding it. Now that he is crawling I am even more apprehensive, but I think its something healthy that needs to be done sometime soonish....maybe this can be a little 'treat' for Grandpas Jerry and Jill when they get back from their travels in the Dominican...hehe.

Tuesday, December 4, 2007

Too Much To Remember!

In my memory, in my tired, tired mind, I remember the first six months with Jonas. As if they were years ago. But no, those first six months were not so long ago. Jonas ate, slept and needed his diaper changed all day and all night. I adjusted to motherhood and never felt guilty for feeling abit bored with my little lump of love. Of course he was sweet and great and it was one of the most exciting changes in my life - but WOW things have certainly progressed from any sort of boredom with motherhood.
















Jonas 1 week old

It was right around the six month mark that Jonas was more than ready for solids; much to my surprise!
















He has now weaned himself quite abit and although I occasionally feel a little weird that he is not so needy for my milk, I know that it is there for him whenever he wants. My milk production, in response to his weaning, has slowed down abit. I do miss the closeness of breastfeeding all the time, however, I am enjoying my freedom and the ability to fit into my old bras!
Since around the six month mark and his introduction to solids I can definitely say that Jonas has become a very exciting little guy. It seems like he started crawling and pulling himself up all at the same time. He is soooo fast. He likes to go up the stairs over and over again. He has this fascination with pushing items across the floor and following as fast as he can. He pushes balls, blocks, Tupperware....ANYTHING that moves across the wood floor. He talks and sings all the time. He loves to swim. He loves Bower the dog more than ever. At the moment he enjoys books with flip up pics. He likes to turn the pages. He plays with his puzzle board. Theres just so much going on right now.
He still sleeps from around 7PM to about 7AM with a few feeds in between. Since our US road trip, he sleeps with us each night; sometimes starting in his futon on the floor next to our bed. Throughout the day Jonas will last about two hours before needing an hour nap. So this means he still naps about three times a day. It is more difficult to get him to sleep now that he is a crawler. When once he always fell asleep with a nursing session, he now likes to be walked to sleep, which his dad does best. Jordan is the king of putting Jonas to sleep at the moment. Jonas just rests his head on his chest as Jordan paces around the house and he quickly falls asleep. Its his preference at the moment. I'm okay with that (haha)
One interesting development over the past several days is that Jonas is holding his pee and poop for the potty. I had been very keen to try diaper free. But being tired etc etc I just tried to do cloth as much as possible (more so in the past 2 months) and kind of just forgot about doing diaperless for any real length of time. Jordan began taking off the diaper as Jonas was pooping and leaving it off. All this time I have brought Jonas into the bathroom while one of us are going and telling him what is going on. And I can't even count how many times I have gone while Jonas is in his sling/carrier. So maybe Jonas already knew what to do. So to bring us to the present, Jonas is crawling around bottomless and we haven't had an accident yet. He still wears cloth for naps and outings, but for the most part is currently diaper free. Its totally cute because every time I sit him on his potty he grunts a bunch even when he is only peeing.


































We took Jonas out for his first snowfall but at the time didn't seem overly impressed. He just stared and stared.


Over the weekend I took my little niece to The Nutcracker which was sooo great! My mom came as well, so it was a sort of three generational 'date'. Livia was in AWE of the sugar plum faerie and was so excited to talk with her after the performance.
Auntie Valerye and Livia at the show




















Wednesday, November 21, 2007

Adventures of Mum and Jonas

I know, I know, I will post some more American Roadtrip pics really soon. Maybe even tonight. If I have time.
I don't know if any of you can relate, but if you haven't blogged in awhile and then you do, the next one is always easier. There's just that something about doing it that first time when you haven't in awhile. If you know what I mean!
Here are some pics from this week. I have been helping on the woodlot with some treeplanting. Its been hard to steal any family away to babysit, so we have brought Jonas out for a few hours of work!! mamamama and Jonas in the BIG truck after work.



Jonas tired and ready for a nap!




taking a walk around the property on a cold and sunny Autumn morning...



visiting the many animals at Grandpa J's.....Mum feeling a little sketched out by the baby horse...

Monday, November 19, 2007

9 Months

I don't think that time has ever moved so quickly. Its hard to believe we are reaching 9 months as a new family. And never before has the truth of constant change been so apparent. Nothing remains the same, not even for a moment.

We spent 3 weeks travelling around California; Palm Springs, Joshua Tree, Solvang and the gorgeous and warm beaches. ahhh. We went to Las Vegas and spent some time with relatives. The trip was ultra budget, so we ate alot of cheapo Mexi food, camped and stayed at relatives places. We encountered the wild fires in Southern Cali, experienced an earthquake at Sally and Keiths (near San Fran) and drove into the middle of a horrifying lightening/thunderstorm/tornado. The United States is a scary place and I now understand why they are all so damned scared. Just joking...haha. Anyway. It was a great trip and I can't wait to go down there again. Jonas was a great little road tripper.
We left Canada with a toothless cutie pie and came back with a teething two toothed mad child crawler!

We are in the midst of our little guy transitioning from 7pm to 7am night sleeper and three 1.5 hour day napper to a totally active 10-12 hour sleeper with two naps a day wild child. Jonas is ridding himself of his early morning nap and getting into a later morning nap and afternoon nap. Its as if he doesn't want to miss a single thing. Sometimes he will sleep for only 20 minutes and then awaken FULLY recharged.

I absolutely LOVE my newly mobile boy. He climbs the stairs, enjoys Downward dog yoga positions and is beginning to surf the furniture. His face brightens when he sees any animal, but especially Grey the Cat and Bower the Dog. He loves his books more than ever and delights in turning the pages. He loves to crawl after the balls that he pushes forward. He loves his blocks and rattles. He has the most adorable seat dance in the world - when I turn on some music he rocks out big time. He is a great talker and singer. He has a new wooden puzzle which he loves to pull apart and eat.

Speaking of eating, Jonas loves his food. It doesn't seem like the is anything yet that he doesn't like. His nursing has gone done quite abit and my breasts are returning to a nice size. He only feeds when falling asleep at nap time or at night. Often when he nurses at night, he will roll into his dad to fall asleep. It is very sweet.

Jordan seems to have the upper hand at getting Jonas to sleep at nap time lately. He holds Jonas firmly and walks around the house. Jonas fall asleep quickly. I have been planting trees at the woodlot recently, so sometimes I am away from Jonas for 5 or 6 hours! He seems to be doing fine but I also notice for the first time he has become more clingy to me. I am fine with that and therefor spend lots of quality time with Jonas after work, singing, reading and playing with him. I only have a day or two left and the trees will be finished and then all will be back to regular routine.

I have tried not to get too caught up in thinking about baby number two and when and if it Will actually happen. I try not to think to far into the future and past as I am trying to be conscious of being fully present in each moment. Its a hard task, but its something that I am trying to stay aware of. BUT I have been brought back to the question of another baby because a couple of days ago my period finally showed up after a year and a half. I was very celebratory and abit giddy that day. It felt good. I felt like I was normalizing again. I also thought that there is the chance that I could now probably get pregnant again. For the moment I think that I will just enjoy the transition into my normal self pre pregnancy. For awhile anyway.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Washington, Oregon, California















Saturday, October 20, 2007

Sunshine

Its been just over a week now and we've checked out the Oregon coast and it's sand dunes; we've seen the Redwoods of N.California and we've visited relatives in Modesto. Jonas got to meet his Aunt Sally and Uncle Keith who spoiled him with a ton of love and attention. Jonas hung out with his uncle in his legendary garage and played with plastic bottles and talking stuffed animals. Jonas began eating 'Mexican' food during this visit (rice and beans). We also took the BART (Bay Area Rapid Transit) into San Francisco where we walked from Market St all the way to the Fisherman's Wharf with Jonas in his BOB stroller. Jonas barely slept as he was so excited with all the action around him. We took the trolley back to the Bart and didn't get back into Modesto until after dark - Jonas was so tired! His nickname from Uncle Keith is 'hey you, Whale Boy!'
From Cali we have headed over to Nevada where we are staying more relatives in Las Vegas. Again, Jonas is being spoiled with a ton of love and attention from his Uncle Allen, Auntie Dorothy and Cousin Nolan. Nolan is 12 and is so wonderful with Jonas - he is trying really hard to teach Jonas how to crawl forward. Maybe we will have a crawling babe when we return home.
The weather is deliciously warm and sunny; Jonas has been an excellent traveller and everything has gone fairly smooth - camping was nice, visiting has been fun and car travel no problem. Well, only a little problem with the car, but we are getting that fixed right now....

Saturday, October 13, 2007

Today Our Adventure Began

and Jonas popped his first tooth out! We were a little surprised because there has been no real indication that Jonas has been teething....a couple of months ago I thought he was teething and yet its now that his first bottom tooth has poked out. While eating breakfast and visiting with cousin Taagen and family in Vic this morning, Jordan thought he felt something sharp in Jonas's mouth, but Jonas wouldn't let us look and we figured it was nothing - he hadn't been showing any teething signs or anything, so it was a bit of a surprise when later I felt the little tooth poking out.


Before I get to our little adventure at the moment, I will do a quick update.

It's only been a few weeks since my last post, but how the world grows and changes when you have a little 7.5 month old bouncing baby. Jonas's toncilitis and fever cleared up and life returned to its normal beat...swim lessons have been really fun and I highly recommend them for mums and babes. Jonas loves to kick and splash and blow bubbles and drink the warm peee water (haha) and stare at the lights. He can also hold his breath while we go under water together or he goes alone. So far he has never fussed and at the end of each session we go to the hot tub or sauna for a few minutes before dressing and (for Jonas) quickly falling asleep.

A couple of weeks ago I attended a Vipassana retreat which was was non residential and lasted the entire weekend. I went home at lunch to breastfeed and came home again in the evening. It was a really refreshing experience for me as it allowed me to relax, contemplate and just centre myself. I learned A different type of meditation about ten years ago - Transcendental Meditation, which is a focused practice that really works well to calm and quiet the mind. Vipassana is very different as it encourages one to be aware of the processse of the mind; it is very forgiving. I enjoyed it so much because I was able to really focus on myself and explore all that I felt needed to be attended to in my life. I came out feeling clear and rejeuvenated. On the homefront, Jordan and Jonas did wonderful together.

At the moment we are making our way through Oregon and down to California and Nevada for a few weeks. I will keep posting...

Tuesday, September 25, 2007

Seven Months

Just over seven months and sick for the first time. Tonsillitis. It has been lame for all of us but especially for Jonas. Last week started off great - I began my Pilate's classes, Jonas and I had our first swim lesson together, baby group, dinner with friends and then BANG!! First Jonas was grumpy and acting very different and then within a couple of hours, fever and total irritability. So fast.
And for those of you reading this with multiple kids, saying ya ya whatever, well this was our first time. Kids just get so sick!
We saw the doc and after taking his temp, which was 39deg, he checked everything else and when he saw his throat he was like yes tonsillitis. I asked if tonsillitis is related to thrush, like serious thrush, but he said no that that wasn't it. Just wondering. I wonder if it has anything to do with it????
Anyway. He had the fever for a couple days, slept lots, cried at night.
Now that the fever has broke he is just a little grumpy and absolutely refuses to leave my side (or I mean let me leave HIS side). We are sleeping together and he spends the day in the sling or the ergo carrier (I bought the Ergo after the Bjorn went missing after our Vic trip this summer)
These last few days have been long and trying. But a big glass of wine and a few minutes alone each night while Daddy tends to Jonas is all I need...hehe, and NO I am not an alcoholic....Mums need a quick unwind sometimes too.
Jonas, of course, has kept on eating solids right through his sickness. He is a big eater and will complain when he doesn't get his applesauce or sweet potatoes or whatever else is on the menu that day. Although he is eating solids, Jonas still nurses quite abit; maybe every four hours or so. I am wondering when my period will arrive? It could be anytime I suppose. I wonder what the chances of getting pregnant again without getting a real period is. I know that I could ovulate first and get prego before ever having a period. Hmm, well, its a topic that has been discussed and if it happens then that's just great. We go back and forth, actually. Sometimes we want it to happen now and sometimes we talk about it happening in like 5 years from now or maybe never...we'll see.
My first best friend ever died recently. I had not talked to her in many many years and had only recently reconnected with her via the currently popular FACEBOOK.. Her death was tragic; the event has brought me back in time. I pulled out old journals and diaries. I must have started writing about my life quite soon after I learned to write because my first journals were about me and Larisa. I remembered what a magical time that age was. We spent our time climbing trees, building go carts and being 100% wild and free. We must have been 7 or 8 at the time. Childhood is so precious and short and I must say that mine was pretty great. I hope that Jonas will experience the innocence and freedom that I was so lucky to have.

Tuesday, September 11, 2007

Bringing Peace Within...

For the first time ever, in the 5.5 years we have known each other, Jordan and I got sick. A really really bad cold, together, at the same time. Nothing is worse than being sick while its hot outside. Its been about ten days and we are now feeling much better. I have not gotten much done during this time...we still have stuff to move from the trailer. I always like things to be neat and tidy and orderly and I have been abit grumpy lately at being too tired to do much. I think I need to let go abit more. Not let things like housework get to me...but its hard cause I am in the house all day long, looking at all that needs to be done, but I guess on the other hand I should be out and about more than I have lately...but I HAVE been sick...

Jonas, with the kick ass immune system, sniffled for a day and that was about it. He's been a happy boy, playing out on the deck with water and frozen raspberries, watching mum pick strawberries (we have had buckets and buckets since June and they are still coming strong!!).


I don't know if its from being sick or lack of sleep but I've given off some neg vibes lately and I am not sure if anyone has noticed - namely my sister, mom, Jord and mum in law...sorry guys, I've been a grump!

Tonight I found some peace, well, really I did. At the Tidemark Theatre in CR, The Island Centre For Positive Living hosted a really cool event where all faiths in the area were invited to come and celebrate peace and diversity. It was an interfaith celebration called 'A Season For Peace and Non Violence'. I enjoyed myself because I felt that these different faiths that came together were truly supportive of peace; the fact that they put aside differences and came together proves that. I am wondering where the Catholics were?? Haha. I grew up in a sort of Catholic family, but really, just a family that is very spiritual and we would go hiking or skiing on Sundays - not church. I did go to Catholic school and was Baptised by renowned radical Jesuit Jim Roberts - but I would say that at this point I can take bits and pieces from many religions and make it my own spirituality. Some of the groups that came forth in this celebration tonight were the Baha'i, Tibetan Buddhist, United Church, Stolo Nation, Wicca, Sikh, and The Centre For Positive Living. Very eclectic. I think that how Jonas will be brought up spiritually will be several posts down the road..but I am sure I will give it great thought..not that I haven't already...

Now, for my little poll up top about immunisations, I am truly interested to find out where people are at with this. Maybe most people don't care, but its something that is important to me. There is so much misinformation out there, so much controversy. Even before Jonas was born I was reading as much as I could on the topic. I found each side really interesting because its almost like a trend. Some people seem to read a book and make their decision on that, they always believe in conspiracy. Then on the other side of the immunisation spectrum there are those that believe all that the nurse/doctor have to say without any question.

And after so much thought and research by both Jordan and I, we decided to do most of them. I could go on and on but after looking at where we are headed as a family I couldn't imagine not getting them. After being in India and seeing so many people ravaged by something like polio I knew I had to think long and hard about my immunisation standpoint. If we were to stay secluded on our Island or in our country, then, hey, maybe I wouldn't immunize. But our plans include alot of travel and work abroad. If little Jonas contracted something like Polio we probably would not be able to get help in time. We look forward to immersing ourselves wherever we go and I can't wait for the day that Jonas is running around with a bunch of kids in some foreign faraway place...

And I know that ours is a culture of fear; but it is my job to protect my son in the ways that I feel important.

And I know that I may be an idealist in raising my first (and perhaps only??) child, but I want to know that I have always done my best.
okokokok, its late and time for bed.

Monday, September 10, 2007

Sleep, Play, Eat All Day Long...


I may have mentioned this in an earlier blog, but we have really entered into a whole new stage with Jonas. Although I did enjoy the first 6 months - it was tough at times. Transitioning into motherhood, feeding all the time etc...

We are at an amazing time in Jonas's development. All senses are going strong and Jonas explores/plays all day long. He is too active to breastfeed for long, except if he is going down for a nap. He does take the time to sit and eat some solids, 3 times a day to be exact. Nothing too exciting yet, just applesauce and root veggies and some peas. He also likes to eat pieces of rice and puffed millet. He prefers a cup of tea or water while he eats at his high chair. No interest in feeding himself as of yet.

He loves his own room. He takes his 3 naps each day on his bed no problem - of course still falling asleep at the breast. And yes, I have been told that feeding him to sleep at the breast is a badbad habit, but, hey, it works so well for us. I think I am gonna go on my tuition on that one.

I love it when I check up on him while he naps to discover him playing quietly with a toy he has wiggled to. He gets around quite well now, but is not 'officially' crawling. His toys include various rattles, household items, blocks (wood and cloth) and balls. Sometimes I will sit Jonas in front of his basket of toys where he will play for quite awhile. He plays well alone. Sometimes very quietly and sometimes quite loudly.

Jonas no longer does the high pitched 'veloceraptor' sound. Its funny, because I remember the last time he did it. I am not sure if its because of this particular incident that he stopped or if it was by chance. Anyway, a few weeks ago I was shopping, browsing through some books. Jonas was in the baby carrier and a few teenaged girls were flipping through magazines behind me when out of nowhere Jonas lets out his high pitched veloceraptor scream and the girls jumped and screamed, freaked right out, which in turn freaked Jonas out and I couldn't help but laugh to the point of tears and the girls began laughing. It was so funny and Jonas just looked so surprised and confused! I have never heard the sound again...

Monday, August 27, 2007

Back Home

Dear Jonas,

We are now back at home and you are very excited. With all of your new awareness at 6 months, you are staring out our huge windows, following the beams and just taking it all in.

You also have your very own bedroom -perfectly suited for you. We have put a little futon on the floor and all of your toys and books are easily accessible for you. For now, as we make the slow shift into sleeping in our own beds, this is where you will nap each day. At night time you will (for the most part) be sleeping on a mattress next to our bed. Last night was our first night at home and also our first night with this new arrangement. I didn't sleep much, but I think you slept fine. After having you sleep in the crook of my arm for the past 6 months (except those first few weeks in the bassinet) in our bed, it was hard not to feel you next to me, breathing and cuddling so close. It felt so strange last night...every hour I woke up to make sure you were still okay, even though you were only a couple of feet away from me! I think that this new sleeping arrangement is for the best, to begin spacing your night feeding now that you have begun solids. You are now so much more active and I need to sleep more in the night to be able to keep up to your impending crawling exploratory period...

Here is some stuff to describe you at 6 months:

* you are a very very light sleeper

* so far you love apples, sweet potato and squash (...well, that's all you've eaten)

*you are refusing the bottle at the moment and will only take your liquids from my breast or a cup

*you are still teething, but no teeth have come out yet - to soothe your aches you like to chew on cold cloths and when the pain gets worse we give you a homeopathic remedy which usually calms you, but when the pain is really bad we give you some Tylenol and that always works

*you are excellent at entertaining yourself for long periods of time...half an hour sometimes!

*for as long as I remember, you love books. You are able to sit through your favourites, you also like to touch and chew at them as well.

-your all time faves are :5 Little Speckled Frogs and Bunnies Go To School

*your favourite music includes:

-Putumayo Kids 'World Playground'

-Quiet Time Raffi

-Thomas Mapfumo

-Kiban Ahluwalia

-Putumayo Kids 'Animal Playground'

-The Be Good Tanyas 'Hello Love'

-Putumayo 'Arabic Groove'

*your favourite outfit - no clothes, no diaper

*your favourite activities include:

-being outside,

-watching mamamama working in the kitchen,

-laughing at Bower the dog,

-staring at trees,

-cuddling with Dad in bed,

-bath time

*you like camping and road trips


Love Mum








Saturday, August 25, 2007

All Grown Up

Jonas is a big boy now. Well, not quite, I suppose, but he now has (as Jordan and I call it) HUMAN POO. Gone are the purely breast fed yellow and pleasant smelling baby poops; now we have the real stuff. Jonas still mainly breastfeeds, but he does have small amounts of solids 2-3 times a day. Last week was sweet potatoes, this week has been apples.

I can tell you, nothing feels more natural and satisfying than going over to Jerry and Jill's and picking apples and plums from the trees, peas from the garden and berries from the bushes. It feels so good to take this stuff home and prepare it for Jonas and us.

Without alot of conscious effort, our diet has been very 'raw' this summer. On the whole I am feeling quite good and healthy, considering I still feed Jonas throughout the night. I recently bought a dehydrator and have been using it non stop making crackers, veggie chips, sun burgers and nori chips. In a week or so I would like to start dehydrating apples, pears and anything else I can find around the property. I am also going to make lots of applesauce. Anyone out there know what would be healthiest - canning the applesauce or freezing it??

Jordan just got back from spending a couple of days hiking at Strathcona Park. Of course I was a little jealous, but I think it was a good little break for all of us. Just to have some time alone.Jill spent an afternoon with Jonas and I laid out in the sun and started reading The Birth House by Ami McKay at Rebecca Spit. It was such a treat! Usually when we have someone take care of Jonas, Jordan and I will go out and do something like hike, run, clean - always something active. It was just nice to be lazy for a few hours! While I had time alone, Jill took Jonas in his new stroller through the community centre trails and then down to the ocean for a swim. They then ate black berries all the way home - Jonas is still pooping out the seeds! Anyway, Jonas was very happy and I think it was absolutely wonderful that he went on this little adventure with Jill and had some time to connect with her. Jonas is very lucky (and we all are!) because there are 3 SETS of grandparents - and soon they will all live nearby! My parents will be moving from the Kootenays in the next couple of months!!

After spending the summer in the trailer aka 'The Family Cottage', we are moving back into our house! We made a little money, so it was definitely worth the sacrifice but I must say that we are all more than ready to be back home. Just in time for Jonas's crawling...

Friday, August 17, 2007

Solid Food

Ok, so I may be a little overinformed and probably misinformed as well. And so some people may think, its not a big deal. But as a mom, it is a big deal what I feed my son.
He is teething and growing and doing all these new things at once. He is also, all of a sudden, totally into our food. I am caught unprepared. I thought he wouldn't be into solids until 9 months or so...I thought breastmilk would keep him interested. Now he wants food...our food.
So I first fed him a little mashed banana. But then I remembered afterward that the only food I have any sensitivity toward is the banana. oops. gotta keep him away from that one for abit longer. Then a few days later I fed him some avocado with a little water. I then breastfed him afterwards as most books/internet suggest. He was really quite fussy for the rest of the day. Not with gas, and maybe it had nothing to do with the food, maybe it was just the teething. I don't know.
But now that I think of it, avocados don't even grow around here. Shouldn't I be feeding him something that is locally grown? Something that we have actually evolved to eat. Isn't eating locally grown foods far better, nutritionally and for our systems, than something imported that our bodies aren't even evolved to eat? hmmm. I don't know the answer. But I do no, however, that something grown locally whether organic or not, will have more nutrients that something that was picked and shipped here for far away. So, what should I feed my son as his first solids?
Maybe I will skip the mangoes, banana and avocado and pick some peas and squash from the garden...
There is just so much info out there, so many opposing studies. Local or organic, ideally, I guess, locally organic. To cook or to do raw for baby?

We all want the very best for baby. We want them to avoid creating food allergies and sensitivities later in life, we want them to build strong digestive fire, we want them to stay away from as much GMO's as possible, we want them to eat organic and avoid all the deadly toxins. Life isn't perfect, but as a mom I want to provide the best beginnings as possible.

Any suggestions/stories of first solids for baby?

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Big Changes

In a week Jonas will be 6 months old. I feel as if we have gone through a big transformation over the past 3 weeks. Jonas has gone from mellow Buddha baby to non stop inquisitive, energetic and playful baby.

When once you were satisfied to sit on mamas lap, stare/hit your mobile or stroll around outside, now you are playing, rolling around everywhere, sitting, squirming forward/crawling, making high pitched screams....we have nicknamed you the Velosiraptor because the sound you make is very animalistic sounding. Its tough on the ears,...but you also make other very pleasant sounds as well. It all seems to have happened so quickly.

You are also really into watching us eat and drink. You get very upset if you aren't with us at the dinner table, so now we put you in your Bumbo seat right on the table. That was ok maybe once, but you insisted on eating as well.

We tried, about a week ago, to give you your first 'solids'. We were eating dinner at Grandma Janet and Opa Case's house and you were sitting in their high chair. You were sooo adamant about eating so I mashed some banana and you ate it - eagerly. Your spit out reflex is completely gone which means, along with your eagerness for our food, that you are now ready for some solids.

Throughout this 3 week growth spurt of yours, you have been abit fussy. With all that growing, I don't blame you one bit!

I think that some of the funnest times lately is when all three of us are laying in bed. You love to entertain us with your babbling, yelling, squirming/crawling and, well, just your new wild antics...

This summer has been so incredibly busy! We had visitors non stop for about 5 weeks and then we went to Vancouver for a little week long vacation.

My 8 year old nephew, Cameron, came to stay with us for 3 weeks. THAT was busy, but lots of fun as well. Did some camping. My parents also visited; they are selling their house in the Kootenays and moving to Vancouver Island in the fall! Very excited about that. Had friends visit. Phew!

Vancouver was great. The vacation that both Jordan and I really needed. A breath of fresh air. How funny does that sound? Our island, where everyone flocks to for summer vacationing, we leave for the city for our vacation. I suppose its nice because it gives new perspective and therefor invigorates. We stayed with our good friends who just purchased a new house in Vancouver; we had a brand new suite all to ourselves. This was nice so that we could move about freely with Jonas; he napped lots without interruption etc etc...

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

Summertime

Some summer pics...
first time camping, Open Bay, Dad and Jonascousin Cameron exploring at Open Baytesting the water at Open BayMum and Jonas on a trip to Victoria, Willows Beach
Cameron
cousin Taagen and Jonas visiting in Victoriathe boys getting into mischief...
Valerye and Cameron hit up the Opal concert

visiting Victoria again...





Valerye's friends visit Quadra and meet Jonas...

Saturday, June 23, 2007

17 Weeks

Jonas! You are amazing. Rolling from front to back, talking non stop, insisting on standing and chewing on fingers...you are a busy, busy boy! You now have one or two LONG naps a day (2-3hrs...nursing during!) and a couple short 20 minute naps. You are still a fierce feeder and you never go longer than 3 hours without nursing. It wasn't so long ago that we were just learning how to nurse and OooHH it sometimes really hurt, but now its as if we have been doing this forever. Nursing is one of the most natural things I have ever experienced and it feels really good to have this closeness to you. There are a couple of books that you enjoy and will actually sit right through to the end! You enjoy your baby massage class (you are the only boy and you pee on me at least once a class!) You do well in your car seat and are easy to travel with, except if you have just had an explosion in your pants - then you are mad!!! You also still sleep with us and I doubt that will change anytime soon. You are no longer loud, but you do kick at times. We love sharing our bed with you and I could not imagine it any other way! We are so in love with you and I am so happy that we are all so in tune with each others needs during this incredible time. Its so tiring, yet so exciting, yet so fulfilling and, well, just so many things and I think that that is why this is such an intense period...
It's all coming together. We love you!

Monday, June 18, 2007

Being Honest

A pattern of renewal seems to have taken form in my life. I am rested and rejuvenated on Monday. By Friday I am feeling low and a little loopy crazy. Saturday and Sunday I regain my sanity. The moments that I can be alone are proving to be extremely valuable in my transition into motherhood. I love motherhood; its totally fulfilling, unmatched to anything else. I have alot of love to give, but just like anyone, I need a source for refuel. Mothers need to recharge as well.

Jonas picks up on this energy of mine. By Friday he was fussing what seemed like nonstop. I was near tears, bored and tired. Luckily Jordan was close by and left work an hour early. He took Jonas for a walk and I had some quiet time to eat a meal and be in silence. We went to the Spit, walked and then the three of us laid on the grass under the evening sun and I felt better. Jonas was happy, everyone was happy. It didn't take much to feel better. It's those moments to myself that I need most when I am feeling overwhelmed.

Saturday found us all in bed until 9AM. We picked strawberries, went to the library, out for a couple walks and I even got in a work out! Fathers Day was fun - we spent it in Campbell River. Bought our veggies at the Farmers Market, went climbing and then out for dinner at some funky seafood restaurant in the marina. Didn't even know it existed. Ate crab for the first time in years! The weekend was exactly what we all needed.

Today is Monday and I feel refuelled and ready for the week! I thank Jordan and my huge family for all their love and support and understanding in this new journey into the Mother Zone.

Tuesday, June 12, 2007

A Fresh New Day...

Never before have I lived by these words as I do now. Each day is a chance for a new start, no matter what happened or how I felt the day before, today is fresh and new!
Some exciting news I forgot to mention:

My parents and my sister and her family are moving to Courteny this fall. Right now they live in Rossland which is in the Kootenys. They've always wanted to live on the island but they wanted to stay close to a ski hill...so Courtney is the place to be. Very exciting.
Blue Moon Samara (horse) was born eight days ago and she is totally beautiful. I missed the quick one hour birth because I was napping that afternoon (that was the emotional meltdown day). Her and mum, Chara, are often right outside our door eating grass....Bower loves to entice the new Philly (sp?) into play - its really funny to watch.


Grandpa Jerry with the new arrival, Blue Moon Samara and her mum Chara (half an hour after birth!)






We have also decided to stay on our Island instead of moving to Victoria in the Fall, as we had previously planned. Jordan has switched his school plans and will be continuing this part of his education via correspodence. I would like to go to school as well, but not until Jonas is abit older. I am looking into a total career change and move into health care (one of my other many passions). Not yet though...they could be another little one in the future....(no I am not pregnant again!!)

Actually, I feel really good about staying here. We are surrounded by lots of family and this has proved to be a time that we need to be around them the most. Jonas is spending alot of time with his grandparents and their partners and its very important to me that he continue to be close to them. There is such depth and richness that they add to his life...each relationship is totally unique and special in its own way. I think that Jonas will be a real nature lover - he always seems happiest when outside. Last night when he came home after a long walk with Grandpa Jerry, he was so happy and talkative...he went on and on until we shut off the lights to sleep. Usually he is passed out before we go to bed!

Monday, June 11, 2007

Challenges

Time has gone by so quickly. Where do I start? How many times have I thought, oh, I will write this or that in my blog, but maybe tomorrow...

We are now moved in and settled into the Trailer, or as someone fondly tried to call it 'The Cottage'. From now until Oct our house will be a vacation rental - a great way to take advantage of our beautiful, freshly built home and make a little cash. I was very keen on doing this for the summer, but after spending days and days getting the house ready and organizing our belongings I got really tired and a little depressed. The first day in our new place I had an 'inner' meltdown and really questioned what the hell we were doing. But then after some much needed rest and a little perspective, I came to my senses and remembered that this is what I wanted. I feel incredibly thankful that we can do this, since its Jordan's dads Trailer and rent free! This is the Trailer that Jordan lived in when he was small and his father built his own house (which took 10 years!). So here we are and my mantra for the summer is to live simply.

Being a first time mum, I find myself in a totally new and unknown world. It is a challenge. Sometimes I feel really alone; I have good days and I have bad. Yet when I look into Jonas's eyes I feel so much love and satisfaction. I seem to always catch myself with too high of expectations - I am learning to let things go a little more, to relax a little more. I tell myself its only been 16 weeks and everything will eventually regulate. My moods will smooth over and become more consistent. These last few days have been so grey and rainy and I find myself feeling low as well. Yet last week, the sun was out, we went outdoors and I felt totally rejeuvenated. I realize its all about restructuring my life, almost like a reconstruction. I need to keep working on it and stay conscious of the fact that its a process and that takes time. I don't have to feel lonely or bored when its raining. There are other ways to be. I know that. I just need to get there.



Saturday, May 19, 2007

Hicks on Sticks in France at Cannes


So our documentary has reached Cannes. This is a picture of our producer rep holding up our mini poster. Now lets keep our fingers crossed for some distribution interest!

synopsis-In 1999, skateboard company owner, Ian Comishin embarks on a journey into the unknown. Bringing professional skateboarding and music to Canadian towns is no small endeavor. With financial sponsorship dropping out at the last minute and Ian's willingness to dive into company debt, the story unfolds, propelling him to an end he never anticipated.

99 minute documentary



Thursday, May 17, 2007

3 Months and Exploring!



This has been a truly amazing time with Jonas. Jordan and I watched this morning as he reached out and tried to maneuver an elephant trunk into his mouth.
He had such patience - he would try to get it into his mouth and then it would flop away and he would give a little shout/cry and do it again and again until he got better. Later on I noticed him reaching for his books when I changed him. This may not sound like such a big deal when Jonas reads this someday - but it really is. It's the beginning of your exploration of life! It's your curiosity being born and now you are finally able to do something about it.

Monday, May 14, 2007

Mothers Day

My very first Mothers Day! I must admit I was totally exhausted. Jonas is going through a little growth spurt at the moment - well, the past 48 hours. Abit fussy, but some really big changes! He always wants to be standing now - we hold him up alot on our laps. He also likes his exersaucer - we have him in there for about 10 minutes before he is tired.


Grandpa Jerry came over to watch over Jonas so that Jordan and I could have breakfast together at the HBI for the Mothers Day brunch. Then I came home and napped with Jonas for a couple of hours. Grandma Janet and Case came over and we had some wine and hung out in the sun... Everyone held and played with Jonas so I had a little bit of a break - it was really nice! Then in the evening, Jerry came over to take Jonas for a walk around the forest (Jonas still loves staring up at the trees!) I was tired, but I had a really nice and relaxing day.
Jordan has taken the week off work to do some finnishing carpentry to our house before we move out for the vacation rentors. I have a ton of work to do as well; so far I have gotten alot more done than I thought I would with Jonas around. He will sleep in his stroller while I am working on the gardens...no problems!



Dad and Jonas, May 13
The Cannes film market starts in a couple days and already we have had some distribution interest from France and all french speaking parts of Europe. So, we have our fingers crossed and are hoping for some serious interest in our documentary.
wish us luck!

Wednesday, May 9, 2007

A Big Boy!

Dear Jonas,

You had your first check up with our family doctor last Sat and you weighed in at 12lbs5oz and you are 25 INCHES long! You are extremely healthy; you didn't even catch my cold. I am now better and I am happy that you weren't too demanding on the days I stayed in bed - we just hung out, ate and slept.
Now we are back to normal. Today we went to the baby group at the community centre and you were awake and watching all the other little ones play: Carter, Sophia and???. After that we all worked in the garden for a few hours - you kept Dad and I entertained with your chatter and then you fell asleep. You also grabbed your rattle today and shook it and watched it and tried to chew on it - this was a first! You might have been extra excited since you saw your Dad hit a home run at his ball game earlier. Maybe you got inspired to hold that rattle...but it was probably an accident.... You are also napping in your crib and when you don't like it you will nap in your swing. You still sleep with us at night and you are no longer as noisy so the cosleeping is much smoother now. You still feed every 2-3 hours. Your dad has also discovered that you are always happier outside. Sometimes when you are fussy, he will take you outside and you immediately settle down. We are so happy to have you in our lives!

Monday, May 7, 2007

Jonas is 10 Weeks!

The transition into Mumhood has been smooth. Well, mostly. I am happy and fullfilled and I think that all my motherly instincts have surfaced one way or another. My only obstacle is sometimes wrapping my mind around the whole Mumhood thing. What I mean is that things that I now really care about, on a day to day basis include such seemingly ridiculous things such as the color of baby poo, where to have baby sleep for naps...

Saturday was International Midwife day, so we went to our midwife's centre for some celebrating. It was nice to chat with our midwives once again and also meet some other new moms. At one point there was a row of us sitting in lawn chairs, nursing the little ones. I am not sure if it was because I was still alittle out of it from being sick, but it felt like my brain was in a foggy mush state. Jordan said I repeated myself a couple of times in conversation. I felt abit ditzy! Have I turned into a mum ditz? I hope not. Maybe everyone felt the same, maybe not. Maybe this is normal and it will pass.

On the weekend we set up a crib for Jonas so that he has a consistent place for napping. I am not sure how this will work. He always sleeps with us and will continue to do so. For naps, we have just been putting him on his matt, in his swing, in a sling etc... I figure its time for him to have a designated nap place. So far its only worked for about 30 minutes and then he wakes up. Today I tried to put him in and he was fine for abit and then he fussed and cried. I would take him out and console him, settle him and then put him back. We did that 4 or 5 times and it never worked. I ended up putting him in his swing and he passed out. I wonder if it matters for him to have different napping places? Anyone out there with some feedback? Experiences?

Wednesday, May 2, 2007

Green Poop?

It's good to be back on our little island. Everything is so green and lush - our gradens are calling out to me. First I need to get better. I have been stuck in bed for the past two days; yesterday I had to drag myself over to CR to deposit $$ for my brother so that we could print out more press kits and send our doc to Venezuala, Paris, Greece, USA and funny enough - Canada! Isn't it funny that in this stage of the game we need to have an American representing our film in order for a Canadian company to take notice?? GO FIGURE.

So I am in bed, coughing, achy and downing some herbal Chinese medicine Jordan picked up for me. Seems to be working. I don't know how I can avoid passing my germs onto Jonas. He has had a few coughs and I have plunged his nose with a syringe a few times, but he seems fine. It's hard to tell with a little 9 week old baby. He seems to be sleeping more and nursing more since I have been sick. Maybe he is fighting it.

Ok, so some mum poo talk. For about 10 days Jonas had really green poop. Usually he had those perfect yellow seedy poops that nursed babies produce. About two weeks ago they started turning green and then really green. I had thought for a split second it was those green smoothies I have been drinking everyday - no not the processed 'greens' you buy at the health food store, but the real ones with pure green vegies pureed in the blender (I also eat the other 'greens' as well, just not as often - they are ridiculously expensive and I am not sure if they are actually processed, but they are manufactured, aren't they?) Anyway, I knew it wasn't my intake of greens, come on now! I knew it had something to do with foremilk and lactase and too much of it. I looked around the net and finally got the information I was looking for on the La Leche League website. While researching - something I prefer to do before running to my doctor for answers - I realised that I was producing too much milk which had probably been caused by my breastfeeding practice. It's funny, because I thought about how breastfeeding is a natural thing and yet I had to get info about it on the net and then I thought that probably back in the day there was some wise woman elder/midwife who had had info passed down from ancestors who could probably answer any and all questions I needed answers for.

My usual feeding practice was to feed for two hours on one breast, then switch and feed for two hours on the second. I had ample milk and I knew this because Jonas would sometimes choke and sputter abit at the beginning and he would also be done his feed in about 3-5 minutes. He would also spit up alot and sometimes be fussy in the mornings with serious gas!!! And then the green poops came and didn't go away... SOOoooOO I changed my feedings to 6 hours one side, 6 hours the other side. This makes it so that Jonas gets his foremilk, but also ensures that he gets the fatty rich hinde milk. If baby gets too much of the initial foremilk and not enough hinde milk they often become gassy, fussy and produce green poo. After a week of this feeding pattern, Jonas doesn't spit up nearly as often, less gassy/farty, feeds for a casual and less intense 20 minutes and yes, his poo is now yellow. Yay Mummyhood!

Tuesday, May 1, 2007

More Travels

Jonas and I just returned from a 2 week trip to the Kootenays. We flew via WestJet from Comox to Calgary to Kelowna, where my parents and sister greeted us in the airport and then drove us to Rossland. A big trip, but travel with Jonas is easy and he was totally fine on the plane.

Cousin Livia (5) was totally fascinated with Jonas and always wanted to hold him. Cousin Corbin (3) was very gentle and loved giving lots of kisses


We stayed at my parents place and spent our time visiting and enjoying the beautiful mountains and melting snow. I got to go on some nice walks, go swimming and work out while my family took turns bonding with the little guy.


Grandma spent alot of time playing and holding Jonas. Cousin Cameron (8) was also very gentle and was always wanting to feed Jonas a bottle of my milk; he even asked to help 'pump' the milk.

Jonas really started smiling and 'participating' in conversation during our visit. He also noticed and got into his little yellow lion which I hung from the top bunkbed for him to stare at and enjoy.


Livia couldn't get enough of holding Jonas




Grandpa and Jonas shared some nap time!



Ashleigh (my sister) and her three kids with Jonas

My brother, Soren, drove me back to the Okanagan where we visited my grandma (dads mom) and then went on to fly home.


Jonas and Mum and his Greatgrandma Johnstone


Uncle Soren

Soren and I ended up doing some work while I was visiting. We found a producer rep from the USA to represent our doc film at the Cannes market - more on that later. Right now we are settling back in and I am getting over a bad cold - hoping Jonas doesn't get it....

Thursday, April 12, 2007

Good Little Traveller

We spent last weekend in Victoria for Taagens first birthday. The boys finally met; Taagen wanting to touch Jonas and Jonas just staring. Taagen will have to wait a little longer before Jonas can 'play'. It was a quick little visit and Jonas did very well for the three hour drive there and back. Natalie's family thought that Jonas looked alot like me, but with Jordans lips and nose. To me I see a little of each of us but when I look at Jonas I see Jonas, unique and beautiful. Casey and Natalie gave Jordan and I gift certificates to eat at the Bengal Lounge at the Empress (our wedding present). Cousin Devyn, Grandma Janet and Taagen's auntie Carol babysat the boys while we ate a super delicious Indian dinner
Funny expression! Jonas and Grandma Janet

Nat and Casey joined us afterwards for drinks and jazz. Really a nice night which lasted 3 hours before we got the phone call at 10pm from Devyn letting us know that Taagen was still awake and Jonas had run out of my pumped milk. He was not impressed and even less impressed when they tried watered down formula. I was ready to go home at that point as I, too, was ready and overflowing to feed my little milk monster.

Jonas is now smiling, laughing and cooing all the time. When I exagerate big smiles, he will smile right back. And when he is engaged and into it we play this game where I am smiling and talking to him in short sentences using alot of Jonas and Mummy and then I wait for his reply and he coos and ahhhs in response.

Mummy and Jonas at Taagen's birthday party

When he is over it he will give a grumpy shriek and we then move onto another activity. Some of the things Jonas enjoys is tummy time where I put my hand on his feet and he shoots forward - we call it the frog game. He also likes to lay on his mat and stare out our big windows - he loves the contrast, the lines of our beams and he can probably see the outline of the trees. He is very entertained by these things - sometimes just staring up and out in a kind of silent awe and other times he is looking around from side to side, stretching his arms and legs and kicking. He also likes to hang out/sleep in Dad's arms while he watches the Canucks.


All of my time is spent with Jonas, which can get very tiring. We have been extremely fortunate to have Grandpa Jerry around to babysit a couple of times a week. It is really good for Jonas to be bonding with others besides Jordan and I. Jonas is very content and very relaxed around his Grandpa and Jill. While Jonas is with Grandpa, he drinks milk, naps in his lap, listens to stories and is carried around in the Baby Bjorn snuggly while checking out all the new tree growth around the property. While Jonas is away, Jordan and I like to nap, have a bath, read, drink wine and talk about our dreams....we really value the time we are able to be together alone.Mummy taking a much needed break, lounging on the deck, in the sun with a glass of wine!

Monday, March 26, 2007

Over the New Parenting Hump

In one of the Dr. Sears/Martha Sears books, they say that the first month of new parenting is the most difficult time. With recouperating and changing lives as well as bonding I think that we have just come over a big hump. Breastfeeding is smooth, pumping and bottlefeeding is a success, night parenting is familiar and we have all gotten to know each other quite well.

Now we are all settling into a routine (if you can even call it that) and I am beginning to pick up where I left off (sort of - I don't expect to do all I could before Jonas). A little yoga, a little exercise, baking bread, working on the documentary, returning emails, paying bills etc etc. Jonas really seems to be comfortable and enjoy being in the sling and peering out as I go about the house and yard. He usually falls asleep after awhile - but the problem I am finding at the moment is that when I put him down (with the sling) in his bassinette while he is asleep, he wakes up within ten minutes. He won't stay down for his nap, he gets used to the motion and when he is still he wakes up. When we nap together in the morning he will always sleep soundly, but if he falls asleep in my arms and I put him down on his own he will wake up soon. Maybe I should be waiting until he is through his REM/light sleep state to put him down and that means sitting for LONGER than I already do (because of breastfeeding). I guess I am still figuring things out. We are borrowing a mechanical swing tommorow, so maybe that will work out. One aspect of being a new, first time parent includes figuring things out for yourself, using intuition and sifting through the ooodles of parenting advice from books and well meaning friends and family. And of course listening closely to what the little one has to say!

Another aspect of first time parenting, for me, is reaching out to other parents. It's a whole new world out there. Last week Lisa, Marussia and Lily came for a visit and to meet Jonas. He slept almost the whole time and missed all the little kisses from Lily. It was so nice to hang out with the girls and just sit around drinking tea and chatting - time went too quickly that afternoon. I think Jonas and I will go and visit them again really soon!

Lisa, Marussia, Lily (13months), me and Jonas (4weeks)

Sunday, March 25, 2007

Rebecca Spit

Spring is finally here and I am hoping for some nice sunny weather to come our way. I love our little Island most in the Spring and Fall, well, and Summer too! We are definitely sick of the Winter rains.


Valerye and Jonas, 1 month old








Saturday, March 24, 2007

Cousin Taagen

These are some pictures of Jonas's cousin. Taagen, taken on Jan 29,07 - three weeks before Jonas was born! This was Taagen's first trip to Quadra Island - he is a Victoria boy. The boys will meet on Taagen's 1st birthday which is April 6 - this will be Jonas's first (small) trip!

Taagen has been very sick lately with Wilms Tumour and will be undergoing chemo over the next several months. We are very positive for a full recovery and a return to a normal and healthy life. He has 11 months over Jonas and much to teach his 'little' cousin!


Taagen and the VERY pregnant Chara, Jan 29,07

Grandpa Jerry, Taagen, Chara and Jill

Mum, Natalie and Taagen, posing on the elephant that Uncle Jordan carved with his chainsaw

Friday, March 23, 2007

Four Weeks

Jonas, chilling out on the blanket Great Grandma Johnstone made (and wearing cousin Livia's pink pants - pink is in for men these days! Already a stylish boy!)

This has been a month of huge adjustments in my life. From the first three days of my giddy adrenalin rush following Jonas's birth to learning the art of breastfeeding to total exhaustion; its been a real trip. Aside from three weeks of sore nipples, there was not alot of physical recovery - I bounced back quite easily and am only a few pounds (7 lbs) more than my original prepreggo weight.
After being totally independent and carefree for 13 years, I have now become a parent. Wow. That is huge, it really is. I love it, but its a real adjustment. It feels as if Jordan and I have been on this honeymoon for the past 5 years. I didn't think of it that way until now, but now our high quality times together are fewer and farther apart. This may sound abit depressing, but I don't mean it to be. We were ready for this next big thing in life and here we are! I am still getting over the fact that this little person, this little Jonas, was created by Jordan and I and I think that that is one of the most wonderful things in the world.

Jonas, you are now 9lbs 5 oz. This is great because it means my milk is satisfying your hunger and that you are thriving. You are amazing. You now sleep with us in our bed; now the family bed. We love skin on skin contact. You love staring out our huge windows. You are a very noisy sleeper.


I don't think you like your bassinet much anymore. You usually nap in the big bed or in our arms and you always fall asleep in the sling and the Baby Bjorn carrier. I love wearing you in the sling; we spend time every morning dancing (with you in sling). We still swaddle you occasionally because your arms are still really wild. You like to suck alot; last week we introduced a soother to you and I know that its not as great as the boob, but I was getting too sore. Fortunately the soother has worked out and you are able to take out any stress on it and I am no longer sore! Also we introduced the bottle to you last night for the first time. I felt like a cow when I was pumping my milk, but I want you to be able to take a bottle of my milk on occasion so that your dad and others may feed you.


Sunday, March 11, 2007

Two Weeks

It's been just over two weeks since your arrival and yet it feels alot longer. Getting to know you, learning about you and bonding with you has taken up all of our time!



You were born content and aware. Your little kitten noises intensified to your first cry on our third night together, when my milk came in. You are a big big feeder. You love nursing. You are a vigorous eater around the clock and your rapid weight gain is a result of your every two hour feedings (sometimes more!). You started out at 6lbs 14oz and by two weeks you were 7lbs 12oz. phew, that was alot of work for both of us! I am very dedicated to nursing you, but I am quite sore still...with your intense sucking. But we are working on that.


The midwives have come to visit you and I several times now. As you can see in the picture below, your arms are very active and they get you really excited sometimes. This is why we have to swaddle you so much; your dad is a master at swaddling. Also, this is the midwife who caught you!


Although you sleep most of the time, we have discovered some things you enjoy while you are awake. You love hanging out on your belly and you love to push with your feet against my hands.





You also love to bathe with your dad. This is your first bath. Look at those wild hands!


We are new parents and are totally thankful that you have had so much patience with us. You don't cry much and when you do it is a little shriek to be fed! And then louder if we haven't heard. I do feel like a milking station and its abit frustrating especially with the sore nipples, but that will pass and I am hoping to enjoy it more as time goes on.
We are all abit tired and we all like to sleep together in the big bed.


So, dear Jonas, this is a recording of your early life. As my mother did for me and her mother for her, I will continue the tradition of baby book making, modern style. It will begin as a blog so that our friends and family can keep updated - but eventually I will print it out into a book and give it to you so that you can one day enjoy it and share it with the people close to you. This is the beginning of your precious and incredible life. We love you.